Wednesday, April 02, 2008 3:23 AM
it seems to be my usual routine now .sleeping in the day, and crying in the night .
god, days are so hard to get by without you around .
even harder then those days when i just broke up with you .
cause then, at least i can still see/hear you voice .
but now, i cant at all .
there`s nothing i can do .
i cant see/hear you .
i dont even know if you're okay .
i miss you so bad, i swear i do .
SUBARI BIN MASTAN, I MISS YOU, SO BAD .
so bad that i wish someone would just run me down with their goddamn car .
and i hate that feeling .
the feeling where i know i have to be happy cause people are expecting me to be there for them .
and i have to be, not for myself, but for them .
and i swear that feeling sucks .
its so hard to pretend that everything is okay when things are just so not .
i cant take it anymore, i swear .
))))))))))):
Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:37 AM):
dont let urself go crazy
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:37 AM):
u have to control urself joey
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:37 AM):
try not to think too much
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:37 AM):
put it aside for awhile
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:37 AM):
put ur mind at ease
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:40 AM):
u really have to joey
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:40 AM):
nobody can do it for u
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:40 AM):
we can only help u
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:40 AM):
but u urself have to do it
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:40 AM):
u have to slowly pick urself up
♡Joeybfly; says (3:46 AM):
hais
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:46 AM):
JOEY
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:46 AM):
joey
♡Joeybfly; says (3:46 AM):
yeah
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:47 AM):
i know ure not okay
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:47 AM):
but im here for u
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:47 AM):
just tell me everything
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:47 AM):
how do u feel and stuff
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:48 AM):
it will make u feel better
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i feel like dying .
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i miss andi .
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i wan him so bad.
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i hate crying
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i hate having to be there fo someone when i myself aint okay
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i hate it
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i hate my life
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i hate god
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:48 AM):
joey
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
for making me suffer so bad
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:48 AM):
dont say dat
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i hate myself
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
for being so weak
♡Joeybfly; says (3:48 AM):
i hate crying
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:49 AM):
joey
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
i hate everything that im doing now
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
i wish i can die
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
i swear
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:49 AM):
if it makes u feel better
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:49 AM):
just cry
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
ii am
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
everynight
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
even now
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:49 AM):
just cry joey
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:49 AM):
it's okay
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:49 AM):
just let it out
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
hais
♡Joeybfly; says (3:49 AM):
yana
♡Joeybfly; says (3:50 AM):
i really hate it
♡Joeybfly; says (3:50 AM):
its always me being there for others
♡Joeybfly; says (3:50 AM):
and i have to smile for them and tell them things which i myself need to hear
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:51 AM):
it's okay
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:51 AM):
i understand
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:51 AM):
now
(6)Hey Liyana, where did you get them teeth? :D says (3:51 AM):
im here for u
♡Joeybfly; says (3:51 AM):
and im very glad that you are
♡Joeybfly; says (3:51 AM):
i swear .
YANALOVE, THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME .
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, I SWEAR .
<3333333333
i did not go to school today ,
yes, i know its been a really long time since i last went to school .
but with all those shits that are happening now, i think i'll just be wasting my time, even if i did go .
why cant i have a normal 17year old's life ?
):
okay, whatever .
i stayed at home throughout, cause i just got my period .
arrrghh, first day some more !
then met Hanislove at under my block .
supper at Mac's, her treat .
slacked till 2plus, home-d .